I just wrote this song and I really love it. Its about me and some other people, including Jim.
Is there light here where no one else can see The truth or the real reality Maybe you can tell me where to go Cause right now my mind is spinning again Oh no I won't give all my dreams away I want to savor the lies and the mistakes Like the moments you never lived for (You never lived at all)
Will you lie? Will you capture me in a million pieces Trapped in the moment Losing control And all I want to know is Will you lie? Or will you walk with me until the whole world falls apart Like this heart
No more hiding not even from fate Or revenge for which I overcompensate All the promises I never meant to keep Keep me awake when I really want to sleep away.. All the memories The distorted pictures that were once real I'll make them real again Let's make them real again
I'm tryin to be as honest as I can I need you here and you just don't understand I asked you to be here before you.... LIED!
Just let me sleep, just let me sleep Just let me sleep, just let me sleep Just let me sleep, just let me sleep Just let me sleep, just let me sleep
Is there light there where no one else can see Or is it dark there and fucking lonely?
Kristine was really upset this morning because her friend sent her a text message that implied he wanted to commit suicide, then she sent him one back and he never replied. She said she was really scared and that she never cried so much in her life.
I'm glad that despite our differences, we both know we can count on one another when times get tough. We made that agreement, and no arguement could ever change that.
I JUST GOT A 100% COVERED SCHOLARSHIP TO GO TO SPACE CAMP IN ALABAMA... -> PRETTY AWESOME, HUH?
We were at the grocery store and I saw Derek. We talked and my dad is just there smiling. When we got out of the store, I freaked out cuz I like him and all, and Steve's like, "who's that, huh?" in that little inquisitive voice I know so well. Well, we hopped in the truck and I said, "That's Derek. But he's the one that's probably too good for me." My dad told me, "You just won a full scholarship to a space camp in Alabama. You're kinda selling yourself short, there, girl." Am I? I guess I'll never know.
But maybe, just maybe, I'll ask him to dance at the St. Patrick's dance.
We went to the cities last week. It was a lot of fun. My favorite play was called,"Action." It was awesome but a lot of people didn't understand it. It was about four people after a traumatic event happened that changed the Earth. These people were driven to insanity. I just really liked it. I bought a pink Eeyore at the MOA. Its so cute! I talked to Kyle a lot. I really like him... not the typical guy I'd like, but still, he's fun to talk to... the only thing I noticed is that he gets along with a lot of people I don't like Andrea and Kris. Jeez. He's still sexy, even though he's so weird. Hehe.
We watche the Sound of Music and I was laying on the bed next to him. Felt so weird, but hey, I'm not used to hanging around with guys. I wish I was, they're so much easier to get along with (most of the time anyway.)
Anyway, today I had KB. In the U of M Crookston. I saw Evan. *My heart comes to a screeching halt.* Ahhh... why do I like him so much? Anyway the meet went great. I got lozza points and our team overall went well. Amy still drives me crazy. She's so..... different I dunno. Then when we got back, Mr. T was there and he talked to me about the duet. I said I wasn't that happy about it and then he calmly and so gently reminded me of Shannon's condition. Music is good for her. I never thought of that.
I found a good book to write. Its called "A Town Called Nowhere." I think its gonna be great.